90's Tune for You.

I need your voice every day
makes it a bright day
birds chirpin'
traffic smooth as an opera,
folks giddy in the park.
fresh coffee and breakfast
roasting in your nose.
smell the fresh day
like a new orange
bright
sunrise.

I wanna see you baby
I wanna hold you close
squeeze you tight
kiss you all over
you're my bird
my bird...
all right.

Afternoon sets,
with a deep red hint,
dusk rises.
You've made me a night owl
darling,
yes, you have.
I wait for you to leave pancho's
each and every night.
I wanna hear your voice through
the cabin walls.
take a step outside,
feel the stars and galaxy.
I can feel the cool breeze
blowin' from the creek
through Grizz's hair.
Oh Baby,
I wish I was there.
Badly.


I wanna see you baby
I wanna hold you close
squeeze you tight
kiss you all over
you're my bird
my bird...
all right.

You make me laugh,
like a child hood cartoon.
Makes me feel new again,
Like,
I ain't got nothin' to lose.
Leave me alone with you,
let's dance,
grab the hoola-hoop,
put on some classic
90's tunes.
Come close to me,
Come smoke with me,
share a glass with me,
I wanna hold you
under the rocky
mountain moonlight.
I never want to compromise,
never want to fall asleep
without you by my side.


I wanna see you baby
I wanna hold you close
squeeze you tight
kiss you all over
you're my bird
my bird...
all right.

simple as that.

Sing,
I want to learn how to.
Dance,
I would love to.
See the world,
sign me up.
Learn,
I am an open book and willing.
Draw,
give me a pen.
Find you.
I am looking.
Drinks,
I wanna slow down.

I love my mind,
not the hazy version.

World,
I want you to all know me.

God,
I am looking.

Change,
Changes will be made.

Snowed in Soul.

Crazy day,
snow day here.
stoned and already on my second
coffee break.
Today is meditation day,
time to find my inner
most self.
I am happy,
relieved,
the anxiety
which corroded the walls
of my soul for so long..
wearing away.
Dissipation from you
will end.
A less haunting distraction
will land on my feet.
Productivity,
self indulgence,
learning,
happiness,
ultimately will be
proper direction for
2012.

I told you on the phone last night.
I agreed with you..
seeing you is
poison for my soul.
Infect myself no more,
Infect you no more.

Retrieve success,
followed by love
 a clear heart and mind.
Spend your dreams hand
over fist,
not your empty wallet.
Find happiness
out of loneliness,
not self-loathing.
   Be honest.

I want to use my art,
my mind and
emotional genius ability
to find my success.
I have never looked to God for help.
Not sure where to find him
but I may take a peek.

Guess???

Stirring my dreams,
ambition stirs
a craze over me.
How to confess what to say,
how to talk about
true ever lasting,
I know its what you want...
True, ever lasting love.
How did I tangle myself in that,
was it my big lips,
my unspoken words
heard from eye to
eye contact.
You  can hear me when you can't hear me.
This is cruel, true
ever lasting love.
Is this what you want?
Forget about me,
don't drag our fangs against
the concrete forever.
I want your true,
ever lasting love.
It's what I want.
It's what you want too.
True,
ever lasting
It's what you want,
It's what I die for.
True,
ever lasting love.

wanna be Henry B.

I have a ache on the left side
of my stomach.
my liver is over there.
have I hurt myself?
Its no surprise,
all the booze
the smokes,
lack of sleep,
lack of water.
My diet has found rock
bottom.
Why? Why do I do this.
I am a troubled 28 year old
man.
I stumble on my words,
trip on my thoughts,
erase my dreams.
I must retain my innocence again,
my resilience and courage
to power ahead.
I need to find fortitude
and serenity.
Is that with myself?
Do I find it with you?
fuck.
someone tell me.
Maybe I should finally pick
up a
Bible.
Maybe its time to study GOD.
maybe the big guy in
the sky
is
the one for me.
I have ADD.
I can't read longer than
10 minutes.
Help me.
I'm on my knees
on this wet gravel street.
It's raining,
I'm naked and ashamed.
Not cold though,
I lost my sense miles and miles
back.
You're out the my darling
two birds in a tree.
Share that branch with me.

Ace

Send it in,
send it to the hole.
fly ball fly.
struck with the force of a jet engine,
you disappear from this space.
get in the hole,
get in the fucking hole.
High draw threw a tree branch,
nearly exhausting your journey to
the
hole.
Just one time,
one fucking time,
please!
get
in
the
hole.
I knew before I struck you ball,
that you were
going in the hole.
damn hill,
did you make it home safely?
I have to check?
and there is nobody with me...
just my luck.
ball, you're either long or in the hole.
a few more steps and
I'll be at your front door.
ding dong
the door is open and yes!
fuck yea!
you made it home ball!
One time, you
made it
in the
fucking
hole!!!!
Wait, no witness..
Surely the man on the first tee saw,
he is looking at me with a bizarre gaze
as dance on a cloud screaming joy as
loud as I can!

Thank you ball.

Best regards,
Beav.

heART. Balloons

heART Balloons: 

Words of lust, love and forever more.

These thrills and stories romanticize the

day.

Serendipity rules all nostalgic thoughts

and feelings.

This day, I am twenty-eight. A rogue in

the shadow of fate.

I take my time, open my foggy blue eyes.

I enjoy my feelings right now, 

this is where I should be today.

Hat's off to all my friends and happy

couples,

forever, you shall last.

Happy VDay to my family,

you are the my rock, winds my clock,

tick tock

tick tock.

I see the world in a different light today.

I am addicted to others heartaches,

it makes me forget my own,

as if I walk in the other persons shell

report as a victim to bitter despair.

Yes, I love those awful things,

I crave raw sensation

of cold death in the palm

of your moldy wrinkly used hand.

More so,

I love the fact that LOVE

can indeed,

pull you from the bottom ranks of

depression and send it.

In "send it" I mean,

Send the utmost possibilities your way, 

conform to a romance which dizzies you.

Fall in love,

wake up in love,

sleep in love

&

die in love.

Happy Valentines Day.